This may sound crazy, but I've been analyzing myself for weeks why it does not go the way I want it. And questions have been rolled out that have not allowed me to come to an answer.
There is one question really answered and what I have something to. And that was already a thing, because when are you real? I can say out loud that I am real. I do not fake anything or do me better than I am. The question that came therefore was painful, because because I am real, I have the idea that everything does not work as if I really want it. My question is therefore "do you have to be fake to succeed?".
I'm struggling a bit with this
It took years to be honest and sincere to myself and therefore to the outside world. Yet my conclusion has become that it has not brought me any further. All I really learned is that whatever dream I have got nothing from the outside world and I do not. And yet I struggle with the question why I am not standing where I want to stand. Is that will power? or what is connected with it, perseverance or perhaps that I am afraid of the next step? I honestly do not know, but I do not want to stay here either.
A nice example that I want to give
My website adapted to the latest SEO standard that Google imposes on me and my sub-title states that I really like helping people (and that's really true). And everything according to the book made optimal, but fewer visitors and there was less time spent while there was more fun content to find. It seems the more I do my best the worse that it is. Is this to me or is there a higher power that says "we will not do it Harder!". I honestly do not know, but I know that I do not want this. I really get the tendency to do nothing at all, because the more I do the less it seems to be. Writing a blog every day and continuing to raise the household and my daughter seem to me the only solution to function properly and maybe get success, but I do not understand.
Am I truly sincere?
Yes, I'm sure ... And that's why I leave everything I'm doing. My website becomes very simple with the things that I like to do and otherwise it is finished. Worked at home and there are people who are there for me. No more and no less. So I am going to let go of everything and start a simple life. Writing and putting everything at home on the ride. And when it comes to saying that I can speak once, I certainly do so if I can help and guide people from experiences I have gained in the past. And certainly not, in fact, who wants to have one of the domain names I have now (standing at the bottom), I just give away for free, away with it! First come first served and otherwise they will follow a few domain names.
My way the next time
What does not work I get rid of and what I'm going to do is simple. Show that I exist and not much else. I keep writing blogs and remember that doing nothing is also an art. Sure I do not sit completely still, because there is plenty to do at home. I do not go away anymore and do not drink alcohol / alcohol until everything is finished and I am satisfied. And my website that I'm working on is what I still do and how I can be reached, not honor! E-mail and social are online, I will reduce to a minimum. And the books that I have I read a number of times. Trying to answer your own life questions.
Why I do this too
I notice that I have lost a lot of time and do not earn anything with it. My idea behind this is that I can spend it better on the people I love and on which it is mutual. And no more time spent on nonsensical things that finally do not give me anything in any sense of the word. Not everything needs to be delivered, but my time is very expensive and can only be spent once. I never get that time back!
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Thank you for reading!
Jouke