Fighting a losing battle

I sometimes watch non-dual videos and read a lot about them. All that energy is there I am, but other things are a thing for me. In this blog I want to take you into my thought.

We have many forms of faith and actually do not know much. And I am someone who looks up when I want to understand something. For a year or 3 I came across a non-duality video of Patrick Kicken. Interesting that you can think like that and throw everything in one hope to say it all. Sit on the couch, because you have no control over your life (was my first thought). Actually they say "it is as it is".

I will fall right in the house with the door
I am not of the hovering life and I want to keep my feet on the ground. Yet it appealed to me, because it means briefly that your ego thinks it has something to say (like most men at home), but actually that is not so non-duality. After listening to the story, I started researching and I immediately noticed something. You can use it or do nothing with it. There is really nothing in between. And to be honest, I did not really see myself in the picture of non-duality. But...
I got chronic headaches in 2006 and it seems like nothing is allowed. A kind of fighting against the beer quay. So I found a reason in non-duality. Work hard, be enterprising, want to move forward, but feel no movement, at least not enough in my opinion. Is this then my lot then the question? No! because I believe that when you turn the steering wheel on the highway and take people into a serious accident that you do not have to leave their "lives".

Heavy costs.
I think about this kind of thing and let my thought go over it. My simple conclusion is that both worlds can be called for. And that energy (vibration) that we are 1 in is scientifically proven. Everything that lives has a vibration, but a kind of Matrix. You have no influence with your ego, even if we think so.

But what do I think?
I do not believe in a God or Alla, because believing brings nothing good and people who believe otherwise or are not bad. That's where I'm already wrong about faith. It would be peaceful and that is simply not true. And then to think that you can read and interpret the writing as you want it. Faith in a religion is fine, but do not bother me with it. Respect each other as you are and whoever that person is, does not matter! Live and let live. I believe in love and that does not make me judgmental about other people or what someone else is or does. It does not matter to me at all. What really matters to me is what touches people. Governments, money, power and religion. Not one of these has proven reliable to me. For the rest, you really have to do your best to ruin it with me. Everyone can be, but peacefully to each other. Personally I trust that I have to do everything myself, even though it sometimes seems to fight for a very big beer quay ...

Thank you for reading!

Jouke

Just catch up and let my thought go

You can not open a page on the internet or it is about the climate. So more about that, but first something else that I really want to talk to you about.

I have not been writing for a while and that has several reasons. I am busy in and around the house and spend more time on myself instead of online. This gives me peace and has also put certain things in a different light. Here and there I have adjusted or refined my opinion. It is also an honor to occasionally let my thoughts go on certain matters.

What I am doing a lot about
I will be honest with you right away. We have the idea to build a house without gas, electricity and water (the latter is still a doubt). We think it's wonderful not to have to pay more to the (r) government in addition to consumption costs. I was a bit scared of what consumption costs and what we do afterwards with tax and ODE (Storage Sustainable Energy). More than half is therefore from the government and we do not think we can do that anymore. This has let us make a calculation with costs and benefits. We pay about 2100 euros in 2019 on gas and electricity. A quick calculation means that we can use those 2100 euros for something else. Okay, you have an investment, but if you do not have a connection and you can do it yourself (which I can), you can earn the whole back in 3 years. We will charge a depreciation of 25 to 30 and a replacement of the inverter after 15 years. All in all, we are working on this further and are looking for a piece of land that can be freely cultivated. Tips are always welcome! We call this project aging without project obligations. Is of course not entirely true, but as few as possible obligations. I am also working on a new bar back house (I can get used to building our house). This must be ready by the end of May and will be nice for private use. I also work on several plans that I can not yet say much about, but that they are great fun.

Let's go on ...
The people who believe in climate craziness. For a while now I am busy collecting facts via the Internet and from reliable sources. I can tell you that it is much worse than Thierry Baudet proclaims. Watched videos and graphs and read a lot about them, but this craziness is only about one thing .... MONEY and POWER. Before I go any further, I want to tell you that we as a human being really make a mess of it on our beautiful earth. I do not deny that we do things that can not be controlled. I'm not here to convince you and put all the evidence here. If you want to know more I would find out how it really works. Global warming is a cycle like a small ice age until the end of the 1800's. So it is a wave movement. At the North Pole trees come under the snow and ice that tell a lot about their lives. This shows that it is the life cycle of mother earth. The scare about that we are here under water for a while is so to refer to the fabled newspaper, but also CO2 is not only bad. There are evidence from satellites that show that the earth is getting greener. CO2 is therefore not only bad in too large quantities. This is not a denial or distortion of facts as many people do. Just thinking of many other things that have been made us believe, but have not become facts yet. You can check me on this when I get it wrong. We do have to stop with plastic and that kind of mess, but we do not have to invest billions in homes and the like. However, I am investing in development, because there were the number 1 in the world and now we are not even in the top 10. Let's not do with each other backward and give children a reason to have free from school, because they only put themselves before l * l. Look at opportunities and or develop so that we are no longer dependent on supplies that can be taxed by the government.

Now I have time!
I always have time or make time if I consider it necessary. Now I am not fit and have a good grip on myself. I would not go for a work week and have myself pushed myself back to the facts the last few days. Even typing does not feel fine (deaf fingers that just seem to be sleeping). But also the streets and the building have taken their toll. My left arm is now overloaded and can hardly hold a glass, but because of the effort also for 3 days headache. This is not a complaint but to point out to myself that when you can walk 100 meters you have to walk back at 50 meters (just as a visual and understandable example). In addition, I have to deal with the flu. A nice combination ... Still, we are going to stay busy and I always have something to do. I can not sit still. Developing plans and reading a lot and getting to know what I think is important. Making time for others is going to slow down the upcoming time, because it wants to achieve things. Becoming more visible and yet picking up my book "an" ordinary "boy". Seems a bit vague, but when you read the book you will understand it completely. When the book comes out I do not know yet, but I first wanted more than 200 pages and I dropped that requirement. I can see how many pages it becomes.

Already 46 days ...
Today already 46 days on the detox, just like last year. Slightly less intense, but well busy. I fall off and do not drink alcohol. I have deliberately chosen not to hang it on the big clock, but I'm not finished yet, because the target is 100 days. Furthermore, I do not know how much I'm going to tell you about this, but I got inside and therefore worth a little mention :-)

I look forward to the summer
Actually, in the winter I have to go to a sunny / warm country in connection with my health, but I do not have much work yet that I can stay in the winter, preferably on Gran Canaria. I can do online work anywhere online and I can come back for it. There are plenty of options. Now I only have to use them for a while.


Questions I get:
1. Are you still ICTer? - Yes, I am also ICTer and help with payment with websites and everything that has to do with ICT (am available and costs 69 euros per hour).
2. Why do you not have a job? - Good question that I have answered many times more often. I have a form of cluster headache that is chronic. It is not a cluster headache, but according to the most people who have studied me, comes closest. In the end, it comes down to the fact that in my brain I have something that can actually be removed surgically, but the chance of success and that I get out right again is about 20%. Having worked with a headache and / or with fatigue? Then you know how I feel regularly.
3. Why do not you make videos anymore? - I do not like myself very well and want to do something good, but I do feel that I should have continued. In this I have allowed myself to be influenced too much by idiots. Regret? No! but could have done otherwise. Maybe in the future again?
4. How do you provide for yourself in maintenance? - This is quite a personal question, but it will be fair! My partner Sjoukje has a good permanent job and she has indicated to me that I can and must not. I can undertake or work things, but I do not have to. She knows very well how I feel and thinks that what I want to do must also be able to do. Total freedom, but in my mind I am still a bit old-fashioned.

Hopefully you are a little wiser about me again and would like to thank you for reading this blog. Also read the other blogs.



Jouke 💗

Everything to make money

Until recently, I really did everything to make money, but whether that was the way? I like to help people and am often happy with a happy face, but the stove can not burn ...

I want to take you into a part of earning and not earning anything and what it has brought me over the years. Why I write this is more about people who really want to make money and are only focused on showing that this does not work. It also shows a piece of my own "money" kitchen and what my learning moments were and things I never do again.

To begin...
Most people make money through an employer who pays them per week, 4 weeks or per month. That is a system that you can rely on and on which you are generally also socially good. So there is nothing wrong with working for someone as an employee. Only I am stubborn and like to work for myself and like to lend myself. Only then will an accumulation of things happen that I could never have foreseen and was therefore not insured for it. In 1999-2006, my health was a tragedy, because I fell from one to the other and with a bang in 2006 a huge headache that is equal to cluster headache (I was told). It was so bad that I wanted to hit the walls with my head. Luckily I do not have that anymore, but the headache is still there and I'm looking for ways to soften it or even make it disappear. I believe that there will come a time when I will no longer suffer from it and it will not affect my daily life.

I had and have a business
After 1999 I started to do a lot from the point of view that I want to make people happy and not to look at what I deserved. In time, I have experienced how many people you suddenly find, because yes, Jouke does it almost free. I noticed that I often could not say no and also the Yes man, because saying no was not in my system. So I did not deserve anything and really worked 2 rounds in the round. For almost 5 years ago I realize that only really, because I almost fell into the same pattern again. I sat at a bar owner and wanted to have a number of things arranged, but never sent an invoice because I felt stressed. It is of course bull-shit and really does not make sense, because I also have to pay for my food and drinks. Then there was a quarter that really arrived very hard. I was sabotaging myself, because I wanted to be among the people again and to be liked, at least ... that's what I thought. I started asking money and it became very quiet. Besides my affiliate programs, I did not do much anymore. I had stopped after a while with many things that did not work or cost too much time and yielded little or little. And then I started to tackle everything to make money. And for the sake of honesty, that is the most stupid thing I've ever done business wise, because I wanted to make money, but I did not deserve anything. I now realize that I am very vulnerable and nonsensical reactions like "then you are looking for a job" or "make yourself really useful", that is the society we live in. I will help you out of the dream right away, because who wants to have someone who gets random heavy headaches and is not allowed to burden his left hand? If you know someone who accepts me with all the risks, let me know !!!

After these learning moments
I only work for a rate and I do not have to earn more if necessary. I have created a simple website and that is what I do, no more and no less. This is because I only wanted to earn money and I turned it around. Who wants me has to pay for it. It makes me powerful and I know that my intentions are still very well intentioned, but free is removed from my system and I do not discount. My motto in this is "what you see is what you get". I cost so much and am more than worth it, no doubt about it. And this is the power that works great for me, because I do not have to make money, but I can make money. The intention is still to make people happy or to teach something and not to make friends or to plea.

What do I want to give you?
Money is important and we can not do without, unfortunately ...
Yet it is true that when she always focuses on money, you will see that it only gets less and will bring you down in a spiral. Do things that you like and put a real amount in front of them. You have to believe in the amount and the people want you to have that amount. It is that simple. Earn with your passion and focus on it, because focus on money does not bring money into the well-known magazine. be proud of what you do and be the best.

Worth the effort

You do not have to hire me or an expensive coach. You can just start by figuring out for yourself what you want, but without thinking about it being impossible and even impossible. That is often something that the environment and you yourself love for you. Usually there are several roads that lead to Rome. With restrictive thoughts you do not get there, but you probably do not need advice in your environment. But disc on what you would do if anything is possible and look at your possibilities from that perspective. And do not come out yet, please call or email me! Asking questions is and remains free, but only when I see that you want something different. I usually respond within 24 hours. Make sure you are worth it for yourself :-)

Thank you for reading!

Jouke