I have to perform by myself

In the world where everything is fast and fast is often a competitive spirit out. After a little research I came across still something disturbing.

A week ago, I caught myself on the fact that I wanted to draw me in humans, but it actually was not. Started making mistakes and started walking on my toes, despite my passion and dedication work on something I really want. And therefore must perform myself, but is it useful?

Last Thursday I was in bed and felt strange, as if I had forgotten something. Every night when I lie, I enjoy after the beautiful day in bed which was given to me, like every night I did last Thursday too. And every time I tried to oppose the fact that I could not really enjoy and have my eyes were sent to the tablet that was on the nightstand. At one point I turned round, with his back to the tablet, but it had a strange power. After three still took the tablet and looked. I had put the wrong text online with all the mistakes still on my website. I must confess that these texts do not let me check, I walk himself regularly, because want this is what I am, I am, and you have to let anyone tinker with, even though it is full of errors.
Would not be better happen to me than I am (I did that long enough).

The competitive spirit that I have to myself is unprecedented height when I’m full of passion and thus surrender to a project or goal work. This means that it may be that I can go by 7:00 in the morning until 23:00 in the evening. And to think that I after I stopped two hours will have no TV or other display before my eyes, because I know that it brings me peace. So I can fall asleep and have a quiet night. This whole week has been offline and online preoccupied with looking at how I can put myself in the market, because I did not know at the time of writing. The goal is where this blog comes online is old news and I know it is good and people are going to ask me. I know what I do and I’m really very good at. Have proven more in the past. Of course you can come up with 1000 things to take out the poor me. I can tell you one thing that you might’m not convinced, but know that my intention is mega good intentions. I want to help people and make the world a better place.

Last week it was clear that my desire to perform again took its toll on me. Making mistakes and not get beyond had become a thing (work hard and do nothing). I had to perform my own, but performed badly below par. Too little rest and like underlies perform to my drive, but for whom? And after I had made myself some good questions showed that I wanted to feel REALLY useful to me. Ouch, that hurts! I did not see myself, but the questions even work on myself.

I imagine vulnerable, but are not vulnerable. Being vulnerable is my strength and the way to help. If you are not open you can not help my opinion. My mission is to help people, because that comes back every once in my life. And now there have been enough hints that this is my mission and should also go because it feels good and is very happy. If money would not be necessary, I would do it for nothing, but our society is asking for money. And I want you to know why my help has a price tag, because there was no money, I would have done so, but also my fixed costs must be paid every month, unfortunately. I wants to show that I’m not doing it for the money, but with the intention that I really wish to see the world become a better place and we can have a beautiful life together. And if this is my way to contribute to this, then I’ll do it for sure, because I like it and it’s good for our future.