You probably know it, something happens and it affects you. You want to give an opinion about it right away or are in any case quite shocked. It touched you and it keeps you busy. That is what has been going on in my head lately too. Being busy with things that cannot change immediately or may not even want to change. Today I want to let my thoughts go about that and make a statement right away.
Love yourself
Well I have been saying it for a long time and I understand, but did I love myself or am I sabotaging myself? That question keeps me busy. And when I go back to what I stand for, it is a mystery to me why I am concerned with matters that I cannot change. Being a little more kind to myself and letting another be a mirror to myself. The latter sounds strange, but what you think of someone else is what you often (not always) think of yourself. I have few opinions about other people, but sometimes it happens to me, no idea why, because I find it very bad to have an opinion about other people. I thought I had taught myself that you should be kind to yourself and others, but in practice, well!
I want to be real
Just calling is not enough, because words don't do much! In my experience I am quite real and I am quite vulnerable. You can read that in my previous blog how I tell 1 and others about my health and that I really don't know anymore. Is it real, yes in my experience that is all real, but am I really real? I don't know, but what I do know is that I tell it as sincerely and as honestly as possible. It makes me vulnerable and strong at the same time, because being vulnerable is not about being hit. You can have your opinion about me, well indeed! Nothing wrong with that, because it belongs to you. By wanting, I think I am not really real. I therefore let go of it and embark on a path that will make a lot of people think, but I will let everything go.
Create content and need help
I like to make content about what I like. And yet not copy other people. I find that difficult and at the same time a challenge. Showing me on the internet and in real life is what I have to make an effort for, but if I don't, I can't do what I really enjoy doing, telling my story and helping people find themselves. I have taken a first step by doing an interview for the series that I think deserves more than what it gets now. I like to make time for that and I like to help. JailTime is a series about prisoners and victims and in the last episode "Promise is guilty" I took on the presentation to interview the presenter himself. Take a look for yourself ... A really nice series ...
I notice that it is exciting outside as well. I have also been thinking for years about doing a podcast or something similar about what appeals to me and I think a large audience is only alone. The question we can ask each other and what we often hear on birthdays is, what are our concerns? You can change your mind about that and I think you can get nice conversations about it without being forced to start a conversation. So who wants and it seems fun? Let me know!
Take time for myself
I am home a lot and you would say plenty of time and a lot of time for myself. Unfortunately that is not the case. That's why I'm going to try not to have anything at all. The fact is that diabetes is currently being talked to me and I am not in favor of a diagnosis based solely on blood values, an important part but not a decisive factor. I understand that everything is interconnected and that there can be a lot more. And instead of suppressing, I want to heal. And I know that I am healthy and a happy person. costs what it costs sticking a label on me I don't like, but also don't suit me. I am in favor of investigations in order and excluding or actually located, not in between. And that is happening right now. That is also the reason that I have not told everyone yet, because I believe when I say I am sick and have diabetes, then all my cells say "come together". And that's what I fit for. I'm going to do whatever I want. Taking time and rest and being myself, because I don't do that enough and sometimes I really forget myself and therefore also the family and friends that I love. No more struggle, but working from the power of love and mutual respect. I want to live without judgment, difficult but not impossible. By taking a rest I hope to find my way back. Being busy with things that I find really important. That may mean that I am less online and even completely offline. Just connect / connect with myself. I am therefore also going to set up my PC so that it gets a different place within our house. I want to use more paper and less online.
Love what is
You can love in many ways and for me it must come from within and feel it, not think. You feel love in your whole body and thinking is in your head. And I find that having no love when it comes to mind. I want to press a reset button within myself that makes everyone equal from the thought of intense love. No, I'm not going to kiss everyone on the street, but more :-) and greetings. It seems a nice challenge to me after the peace has returned.
Distractions
I have actually been working on this for 4 hours now, but in the meantime I notice that I am distracted by side issues and cost a lot of time. Example: wanted to place a link and saw something and the same and strayed completely. Calling myself to order almost didn't work. Another example: I received a text about the start of the CAO Hospitals, I now know the principles of both parties. All distractions that indicate that there is no peace in my head and go from hot to her. This is THE reason to take a step on the spot and get busy with nothing at all ...
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